I'm in a mood. My oldest is holed up in the Lone Star state. The teenager turned college guy is at UOP waterpolo celebration. They beat Stanford today in double overtime. I do believe drinking and shenanigans will ensue. It is way out of my comfort zone. I'm in a mood. The Mister is deer hunting. It's opening weekend and he's out chasing innocent creatures with doe eyes in pursuit of, I'm not quite sure. I've popped a bowl of popcorn, drank a sinkful of water, and now I'm burrowing in for the night.

The water polo game was great. My youngest B team won their game 19-3 against American River Jr. College. He scored 2 goals and was majored. Man, I have no idea how he learned to be so fierce. It was great. He was also on the bench, dressed, and in his cap for the Stanford game. It was so strange to see him so grown up sitting in a black and orange cap, a Speedo with a tiger on his behind, and his name on the front, in all capital letters! Sheesh, who would have thunk it. I think I have a D 1 water polo player, for reals. I am constantly amazed. He even has a black robe with a Pacific tiger on it.

So why am I in a mood? I'm not sure. It's one of those silly introspective reflections that contribute to my overeating and self loathing. I miss the busyness of having a family around. I miss the joking, and boy stuff that constantly goes on. I wonder, what I would do if I was truly all alone. I know I wouldn't like it at all. These men in my life complete me. I have loved being a mom. I know without a doubt I can make lemonade from lemons. I know there's a silver lining to every dark cloud. I know without a single doubt that when God closes a door, He opens a window and a fresh breeze comes billowing through. I'm in a mood, because I miss my children. They are no longer children; they are young men. I am very proud of them and all their accomplishments. They are so different, the two of them and they are so alike. They both love to laugh and of course they do believe I am old and a dorkasaurus. They both are handsome and so very smart. They both are incredibly loyal to their friends and very creative. I am so incredibly blessed to have had the opportunity and privilege to borrow them from God for a brief moment in time.

But, having said that, my nest is empty. They are gone and well, I'm being a big whiney mom, but I do miss them lot. I'm in a mood. I think it's called an empty nest mood. I love you Robo and Froshy.